skinny

is all that matters. That's what it feels like anyway.

That's the measurement of beauty.

That's the measurement of character.

I JUST WANT TO BE NORMAL. I want to be able to wear tank tops without my boobs hanging out, and I want to be able to wear two piece bathing suits and I want to be able to get tattoos on my arms and I want to not feel inferior and ugly and disgusting and not-good-enough all the time. I want to be able to complain about my weight, knowing that it's not really an issue. I want to be able to shop in normal stores. I want to be able to have feelings for a boy without feeling like a freak.

I don't ever want to eat again.