Saturday, May 30, 2009

Things I wanted to be when I grew up/Other Things

I give you a list of every career I have ever wanted, from the time I can remember, not including the two that I am currently considering:

1. Balerina - Okay, what girl DIDN'T want to be a balerina when they grew up. Too bad I never took dance lessons...

2. Veternarian - I mean, this was a no brainer: I LOVE animals, so I would LOVE to make them better, right? Yeah, I thought this was my dream job... until I learned that you have to put some animals down... ouch.

3. Comic book artist - oh yeah, I loveeeed to draw cartoons. But, you know, it turns out that I wasn't exactly good at writing scripts for comics.... so, I crossed that one off the list

4. Fashion Designer - Even though I can't dress myself well, I sure can dress other people. But, unfortunately, I never learned to sew, and all of my designs got to be the same after awhile.

5. Broadway Actress - I'm not going to lie, as far as Musical Theatre goes, I'm not too shabby. Except that overweight girls never get cast for leading roles... oh well.

6. Cake Decorator - Yeah, I was basically in love with food network challenges for awhile. My dreams were crushed, however, when I failed to assemble a simple layer cake made from boxed cake mix.

7. Photographer - Um... overdone. Plus, I kind of lost my touch.

Obviously, I have never been very practical. I guess I was doomed to be a homeless person. Agh.

Anyway, That air freshener I bought was kind of a disappointment, and is way too strong for my taste. Oh well, I'm giving it another week to see if it grows on me. Also, I have rediscovered my love for tea of all kinds: Green Tea, Red Tea, Chai Tea, White Tea, all sorts of teas! my home has such a selection too! Seriously, I think we have at least ten different kinds of tea bags... it's so wonderful, so much to choose from! just slip a little packet of splenda in there, and you're good to go! well, usually, just not in green tea, because that tastes sketchy. Oh, and we have this chocolate caramel chai tea, it is freaking AMAZING. Seriously, I probably had like three glasses today!!! Yeah, I pretty much did nothing today except watch reruns of crappy TV, and drink tea. And I played a little guitar.... and when my brother and the Atkins dropped by, Austin reminded me that I said I would make him a super cool bracelet. Sooo, I started to do that, but I can't figure out a good color combonation for him... the two I started are wrong: one looks to girly, and the other accidentally turned out to be rainbow colors. haha, oh welll, I'll do it tomorrow!!! Yeah, and I just realized that there is noooo sunday school tomorrow D: guess I'm having OATMEAL for breakfast

Thursday, May 28, 2009

The smell from HADES/Career choices.

O how I hate you, Mildew. For the past week or so, my car has REEKED to high heavens. Seriously, it smelled like spoiled milk, rotting vomit, and decaying human carcass all in one. I have been wondering for a week what on earth that smell could be, and today my mom inspected my car and found the culprit: Something is leaking, and the two solid weeks of rain have been festering in the back of my car. Gross. In addition to being incredibly disgusting, the mildew also ruined two harry potter books (volume four and five), eclipse, and a comic book, while kindly leaving an old Latin text book in tact. Goooo figure. Oh well, I'm wet-dry vac-ing it tomorrow, and I bought a delicious "Paradise Fruit" flavored air wick car freshener to tide me over. But really, four dollars for an air freshener? It BETTER work, that's all I can say.

Soooo, I've been wavering on the subject of what I want to do for a living. I know I've always been a fReAkKkK about going to art school or doing SOMETHING artistic, but sometimes I just don't WANT to. You know? when you sit down to draw something, and nothing comes out. I don't know if I want to deal with all of that constant uncertainty. Oh, and I don't want to work as a waitress for the rest of my life either..... I've always thought that art was the only thing I could ever do. It's the only thing I've ever LIKED, and it's the only thing that I've really demonstrated a natural talent for (not to toot my own horn ;)). But you know, lately I've been thinking, and there is one other thing I could see myself doing. It seems a little odd, but I think that I might really like to go into youth ministry. You know, being a youth pastor.... like Mario. It really doesn't seem like a woman's job, but that was what Jenny was before she moved here, and I've researched it and found that there is actually a LOT of female youth pastors. But, also, the question is raised: am I holy enough? I mean, I freaking love Jesus with all of my heart, but I've done things I regret, you know? I love kids, and I LOVE being a middle school youth leader, I love to help people, I love to talk in front of groups, I love to listen to people, and I'm a hXc christian. So, I mean, what else do you need? I'm just really torn on the subject. I've written up multiple pro/con sheets, Art vs. Ministry, but I still don't want to make the wrong choice. I decided that my mission this summer is to do hardcore research, and figure out what course I want to take. I'm just so freaking lostttt. Eh, I'll keep praying about it :)

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

It has been awhile/I'm not usually up this late.

Hahaha, I just looked at the clock and it changed form 11:11 to 11:12. Shows you my luck.
I don't know why I decided I wanted to blog, but I havn't in sayyyy months, and I'm almost never up this late, especially on school nights.
I'm just over school. Both of my brothers are out, and I still have a week and a half to go. It's excruciating, dragging on and on and on. Counting down the days just makes it go slower. Like watching a pot of water boil.
We went to Chuck E Cheese today with Middle School Youth, which I recently became a member of (like a month ago). Alyssa and I were afraid they would think it was lame but they seemed to like it alot. At least I liked it alot. They even played a bad remake of a jonas brothers song sung in Chuck E's mousey voice, and I got so excited. I lost the trivia game three times and won once, out of good luck. I also played a holy-cow ammount of ski ball and me and seth played this lame game where you shoot peanuts at zoo creatures. It was a great time even though it was germy and the pizza was a little on the sketchy side, and the Chuck E Cheese in ocala is not NEARLY as huge as the one in altamont. Haha, I was surprised at how many people had never been to a Chuck E Cheese... what a horrible childhood they must have had.
Lately it also seems that people are more open to share their relationship issues/developments with me, which I find strange, but I kind of like it. I just wish that all of these people who like eachother would just go out already, ughhh, it's not that hard, creeps.
Oh, and I picked up guitar again recently... I learned to play "Crush" by David Archuleta, "Sleeper 1972" by Manchester Orchestra, "You Belong With Me" by Taylor Swift, and select parts of "Pokerface", which because I have yet to master the "F" chord (F FOR FAIL), it is impossible to play for me exept the chorus. But I guess I'm cool with that.