Saturday, June 20, 2009

Worry Wart

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. -Matthew 6:34

I've been pretty much trying to live by that the past couple of weeks. It helps, it really does, but I still can't help my consistant worrying. What does she think of me? What does he think of me? Was that a jerky thing to say? Why did I do that, I'm so stupid. What am I going to be? What if this happens and this happens and this happens?
I really need to slow down sometimes. I think alot of my problem though is that whenever I do or say something stupid, or if someone says something against me, or if I hear through the grapevine that she said this this and this, I hold onto those things and dwell on them. It takes a lot for me to let something go. People used to think that I simply didn't care. That I didn't mind what they thought of me, or what they said about me, but that is pretty much the opposite. I just need to let it go. I guess I wouldn't have the problem in the first place if I was just more godly and didn't do things that people could talk about badly :P. haha, I'm working on it. Salt and Light, thats what I want to be :)

Things I need to do: Finish GEOMETRY online, and start on my AP art stuff. I'm just so lazyyyyy

I hate feeling like I don't have anyone to talk to about girly things. I mean, I know that theres people who would listen, but i'm not so sure they'd CARE. oh well, thats what journals are for. I'm going to go write in mine right now :)

I am the worlds worst matchmaker

I wish I had crazy magical powers so that I could give people change-of-hearts sometimes, and I could make people fall in love all willy nilly. Kind of like some intense modern day cupid. If I had those powers, I know exactly what I would do.
I would make him break up with her so she would date him, and that would make him get over her, so she and he could date, then I would make her realize how much she likes him, then she and he could date again, and then he would finally realize that she is the greatest woman in the world and they would date, and then he would date her, because they would be the best couple ever. And then she, oh she would break things off with him and him for good, and then he would break up with her and then he and she could go out again. And of course then he and she could date, causing heartbreak to him, but he saw it coming anyway and then she and he could get together, and it would all be happily ever after. And, it really would be happily ever after because I would plant some magical seed in all of their minds so that when they all inevitabley broke up, they would know that it was OKAY because this is just high school, and they have the rest of their lives to find someone perfect for them.
But I am the worlds worst matchmaker, and these things will never happen.

Friday, June 19, 2009

What do you do when....

What do you do when you really really want some diet pepsi, and you go to the kitchen only to find an empty bottle on the counter?
What do you do when no matter how many times you repaint them, your nails always look like freaking crap?
What do you do when you're so bored at home that you eat everything in the kitchen and an hour at the gym isn't even going to help and you know it?
What do you do when you swear you remember packing your cell phone charger back up before you left, and it's nowhere to be found?
What do you do when you're paranoid about skin cancer but get too much sun no matter how much sunscreen you wear?
What do you do when you want to punch yourself in the face every time you look in a mirror?
What do you do when you have a feeling that your best friend is repulsed by you?
What do you do when you know things that someone said bad about you and they don't know you know and you can't act differently arround them, but you're really hurt?
What do you do when your brother acts completely different arround the girl he likes?
What do you do when your summer consists of nothingness because you don't feel like you have enough friends?
What do you do when you've liked the same guy for ever, and he's head over heels for some girl you will never even compare with?
What do you do when your life is so bland that you become consumed with everyone elses' interpersonal relationships?
What do you do when the feeling fades and you're left uncertain again?
What do you do when you think you know what you want to do for the rest of your life, but aren't sure how to go about it?
What do you do if you're worried to death that what you want to do for the rest of your life isn't what you're supposed to be doing?
What do you do when you can't think of anything else to do?

I suppose you simply pray about it.